Ooh a belt

I’m actually forced to wear a belt now on a pair of jeans that I own.  While I’m not a big fan of belts I haven’t had to wear one in ages as my pants were always loose but never falling off me.

I wonder if I will ever get to the point where I wear form fitting clothing as I have been weary baggy clothing for so long and it really is a comfort zone for me.

I suppose in my process to accept my body and gain confidence in myself and how I look perhaps I will evolve to tighter clothing.  I already have to wear snug clothes when  I run and I choose to work out in spandex and I haven’t died yet so perhaps I’m growing as a person.

These particular pair of jeans were getting more snug in fall 2009.  This wasn’t good as they were pretty roomy to start with.

So as I worked through the Body Confidence program with Cheryl and Scott I started working on my insides and now my outsides are starting to follow suit.  I’m not as snacky after dinner, I don’t have to horde chocolates and secretively eat junk food in the car between meetings.  Those feelings have subsided for the most part.

I’m not going to say that I’m cured or that they will never come back but I do know that they are a lot less and every time I turn down sugar, caffeine and such I actually feel like my body is thanking me.

So with that I can say that I have lost about 10 pounds since starting this blog and it has been a great journey.  I have actually taken part in the common techniques to loose weight but it doesn’t feel the same as dieting because I’m choosing to exercise and enjoying it.  I push my limits where I want to and not at other times. I have full control over what I want to do and don’t hold myself to any unrealistic and unachievable expectations or goals.  It’s a completely natural and therefore sustainable.    I want to keep active.  I want to skip the extra sugar because I feel better when I’m less jumpy.

Here is another thing that has changed.  While the scale says 10 pounds are no longer on me, I really do feel so much lighter and better.  It’s just not a diet mentality.  I can’t wait to see where this takes me and I’m 100% confident that these changes that I have made over the past 2 months are sustainable.

I like who I am inside and out.  My body is adjusting to where it wants to be naturally.  I have no idea what that final weight will be.  I know that it is not done transforming yet.  I’m sure I have lots more to learn.

The body confidence courses, take home techniques and meditation CDs all help me to ground myself.  When I’m stressed I’m aware that I need to breathe.  After a long day when I’m ready for bed and my mind is racing, I can calm it down and sleep more soundly.

We all put our bodies through a hell of a lot.  Through these courses I have learned to treat it with more respect and it is rewarding me for it.

And so while I don’t like belts, I’m thrilled that I now have to wear one on a pair of jeans so that they stay put! I’ll take it